Aoi tells Uruha about malls, customers, and matters of the heart.

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People wouldn’t be able to live with directions. Sometimes because they’re just so damn stupid not to be able to get hints from the things around them, are just too proud to even ask others how to do a certain thing, but mostly because if there weren’t any direction or rules then somebody’s ought to be butthurt because they didn’t do something right. This is why it’s easier to just put up directions so that no idiot will piss anyone and no implementer would be pissed.

Sometimes I wish life has that too… or at least, me. Directions, like in those establishments. If there are signboards everywhere in our lives or in ourselves then everything would be perfect – okay, less than perfect, because we all know that in every rule there’s a rule-breaking asshole or an ignorant idiot or a loophole of some sort. At least it would make everything a bit more manageable, unlike now, where we’re all left to grope in the (theoretical) dark.

Yeah, I think it’d be pretty efficient if we all had signboards in our lives or in ourselves. You know how people make elaborate rules and guidelines when there’s something very hard to do, or when a certain object is so delicate to handle? That should be the kind of signboard we should have plastered on our faces – not literally, of course, but I think you know what I mean. Like when trying to install some software on your computer, you know? There are always such careful directions as you go along and if you don’t do as the directions say then you’d most probably get fucked and have to reformat your computer. I’m exaggerating, of course.

Although, I don’t think I’m that ambitious nor am I high maintenance. I wouldn’t need signboards in every aspect of my life but just in one particular. And I wouldn’t even be so strict about enforcing it because I still have high hopes for humanity, or at least, the people around me. If I had a signboard, I’d ask people only a few things. Like… take care of their and my belongings because I’m a pretty careful person and would be royally pissed if any of my stuff or their stuff get damaged when they encounter me. Or something like please take care of the way you look at me because just might take that look the wrong way or totally not in the way you’d want me to think. Or three A.M. phone calls because that’s hella annoying but I wouldn’t have any choice but to take it anyway and talk to you. And something along the lines of, management will not be held responsible for any loss or something. Or maybe the management will be held responsible because in the first place, I allowed you to enter my life. I’m as responsible for you just as you’re responsible for me once you entered my establishment, isn’t it?

Don’t laugh at me like that, damn it, I’m serious.

I mean, people really should be careful when they’re trying to enter me… okay that didn’t sound right – I mean, enter my life. I don’t want anybody hurting just because they can’t read the signboards and of course I wouldn’t want to be hurt either.

Still, even with directions, it’s just normal to mess up, I know that. There are just some circumstances that we can’t help and all we’re left to do is to watch helplessly as you get fucked with the customer’s bitching – in the case of the management – or wait for a solution (that might not even come) – in the case of the customer.

But if something should mess up between the two of us, which I really hope won’t happen any time in forever, I hope I’d be able to resolve it. We’d be able to resolve it in one way or another.

Then again, I don’t mind being fucked (up?) by you. No, not at all.